The saddest feeling is being with you and you not filling that empty space I need filled. You say you understand, but you haven't even began to listen to what I have to say. My heart is yearning for another persons soul. That's why I'm constantly surrounded by other people. I want to feel that I am needed by others, especially by you. But you don't get that ME being NEEDED by YOU is that missing piece. And it's like with every other guy i've tried to make them all fit, or hope that they would. One actually even came close. He fit, but he wasn't the "right key."
I'm not looking for lookalikes, I'm needing you to fill that void. I try to help you to make myself feel like YOU NEED me in your life. I cry not only cause I feel guilty that I take up your time, but because I'm sad. I'm sad because you don't get that I NEED YOU to need me. I need to be needed. Not wanted. Nobody can actually define what they want in life. They want the world and all it's riches, but they take for granted what their heart needs.
I need a soul to need me the way I need them. I want you to be that soul, but I will not assume you to be. I've done that so many times in the past and it's only caused a buttload of heartache. I will not allow myself to go through that again. I want you to be my ending so i can have my new beginning.
Do you understand that? You continually say, "I don't need to be in a relationship, but I want to be in one with you..." You think that's romantic? That, that will make me feel better? Well, you're completely wrong. You kill me everytime you tell me that. I need someone to need me. Then, I will know I am that missing piece for them and he for me.
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